We visited a crater site in our area to learn a bit more about our surroundings and see what geological information was being dispersed. I love rocks and anything geology, my husband loves history and anything science/creationism. It was a very honest and interesting tour – yet full of scientific theory being portrayed as fact and proven data, including lots of painted depictions and interpretations. Any skeptic (or otherwise middle-age former collegiate knowing you must take precaution to any source of theorized educational material) could question that a fallen crater from outer space, crashed into the earth and left no evidence but a hole and dislocated rock and soil around it, caused a tsunami due to the shallow marine water it sailed through before impact causing deposits of sedimentary soils from other regions to be located in higher elevations within the crater rim as well as blinding any living thing within the 90-mile radius… The fact there are some of these soils atop the rim and the impact occurred 85 million years ago leads one to raise an eyebrow…silt, clay and micaceous soils are very fine grains. They are not going to last forever, let alone one million years atop a mountain through rain, wind and tornadic activity.
Why am I discussing theory?
Because we can do the same with our own lives and with our very own purpose. We can get caught up with life, with our ‘have-to-do-because-list’ and we overlook our burden deep within our soul. We theorize about why we are doing what we are doing and why we are not doing what we want to, our dream, living in our purpose. Our ‘dream’ that stays a dream, our ‘should’ve’ that could’ve been a ‘would’ve’ or a confusing, lonely, suppressed thought, feeling or passion…
…and there it remains, traveling day in, day out like a space-traveling meteor or an empty crater site which may or may not be the result of a fiery galactic ice ball. I won’t leave you here with this thought of mystery…but these hopeless questions of purpose and self-definition I find seems to nag and pull at those of us who are of a Type-A personality. I notice many Type-B’s either work or play or serve in their purpose one way or another, coasting a bit more with the ebb and flow of life’s unpredictable waters. And if said Type-B is not, they, too, are struggling with discipline and saying no, defining their life as well by reason, settling for confusion or just trying to make someone else happy. So this ‘checklist’ is for anyone, Type A or B, and serves as a platform, a visual yet open-ended launching pad to see if in fact it is a crater site or just overlooking a big hole.
Life is bigger than you.
It can and will go on without you.
And the thought of not leaving a mark or legacy is saddening, depressing and burdensome. Can only a meteor cause an impact on this earth?
So first, a few questions…Define who you are – not your job title, but who you are.
- Who = of what character, origin, position, importance?..Does calling = purpose? That depends…and probably looks different for everyone, but these two words can possibly be interchanged, but by definition (see below) I read that calling is more like my job, purpose is more the ‘why’ to me.
- Calling = profession, trade, vocation
- Purpose =
- Does my job = calling/purpose? Not necessarily…
- Do I need to be paid/receive money for my calling/purpose? No, but that can be a good thing if you do ;)
- Jesus gave us this command from Matthew 22:36-40:
‘“Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” Jesus replied: “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.” This is the first and greatest commandment.’
My interpretation of this is the fact that these words are of great importance and come before any job or calling or purpose. So loving God with everything comes first. But now what? If you love God with everything you are, then you probably already know your purpose because it is IN you. On to more questions…
- Am I overlooking the desire of my heart, my passion, what I’ve always wanted to be? I’m not talking about climbing Mt. Everest or getting married (not that those cannot be desires, just not purposes) but it’s probably in there somewhere. Try writing down your passions, where you see yourself in the future, where you would like to be in 5 years, what you’d love to be doing, who you’d like to help, etc.
- What ability do others compliment you on? What natural talent comes easy to you that maybe you take for granted? Therein lies purpose. It probably needs developed if you don’t use it everyday, but it’s something in there, you were born with it and it was placed inside you for your purpose. We are getting closer… ;)
As you can see, I am very systematic when it comes to reaching a goal or searching for an answer. Some take other routes, use other methods. These are just stepping stones, little questions that have big answers and everyone’s answer will be unique. With that said, we must really spend time seeking God first, looking into our selves a bit, digging up those buried desires, forgotten meteorites from long ago that we’ve built our life upon, not realizing we may be standing on a star.
“There is no peace in the heart of a slave, nor in someone who is driven to continually bustling about in the world. Only a spiritual person – a personal aglow with God’s love – finds true peace.” – Thomas A Kempis, The Imitation of Christ, Book 1, Chapter 6
It’s hard to have peace when you question your purpose! I know! And there are days when you still question it, or life redirects you, things change and your purpose gets redefined. And that’s life. But do begin with loving God, trusting God. Define your desires, your passions, whether they are doing something that makes you most happy, brings you the most peace or stirs the deepest anger that you must do something to fix it. Then write your steps to make that change, add it to your life and begin. It could be just a theory…but your dreams begin that way and soon become goals… The similarity in theory and your purpose is in fact subject to experimentation, method and perception.